Destinee's Devotionals

Why I Hate Being Single, Yet Really Love It!

Ugh, there are so many things that I hate about this single life; Yet there is so much that I enjoy.

I hate being single

I hate that I feel like I need a man here at night just to make me feel safe.

I hate that I feel like I need him here to get some real sleep.

I hate that I don’t have an adult to talk to, play with and cuddle with at the end of the day.

I hate feeling like I have to be the protector of our home.

I hate not having daily help with four children and all of their needs.

I hate that my oldest daughter cries at night because she just wants daddy to stay over.

I love being singleYet, I love having the extra time to write and study and grow.

I love being able to go anywhere with anyone without discussing it with another person.

I love not having to compromise on decisions around my home.

I love being able to do what I want with my money instead of scrimping so my other half can blow it at the bar.

I love being able to buy home decor and other random things that I enjoy without another person criticizing me for it.

I love not having someone disappointed or annoyed with me because the house wasn’t clean enough or dinner wasn’t made in time.

I love being able to focus on myself for once.

I love knowing that God is using this time to mold me and grow me into the person he needs for the purpose he has I can be singlefor my life and the GODLY relationship he is constructing for my future.

I love that God is using this time to make the kid’s dad a better father.

I may feel scared and lonely at times, but I’m learning how to trust God as my protector and sufficiency. I may not have a man to hold at night but I have these 4 beautiful kids who need me now more than ever. I may get overwhelmed thinking about having to protect these 4 kids on my own, but then I remember that I can fully trust God with that task.

I may not like having to take on the daily needs of four kids all by myself but I’m honestly blessed that they have a dad who is now around whenever we need him. It breaks my heart to see my daughter cry for her dad at night but I know deep down that this is what’s best for them. They will learn that a man can’t mistreat them, they’re worth more than that and I will show them by leading with my life.

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