As a Christian the fact that I struggled with the desire to die seemed a double blow. Here I was supposed to be the happiest of all people, and really I just wanted God to take me in my sleep and let me be done with this life and on to eternity.… Read More Suicide
I think it’s when a part of me disengages and becomes somewhat passive, somewhat detached, going through some motion, thinking I know where I can find God, I think that’s the place it becomes religion. And the things I do aren’t necessarily bad, but they are no longer alive…..I can step out of religious behavior to receive the perfect portion Christ holds for me. Relationship wins over religion every time.… Read More Religion vs Relationship
[Holy Spirit] helps me remember the peanut butter I forgot I needed to pick up at the grocery store. He helps me cook! He gives me recipe ideas, and helps me save a lot of meals from going into the trash!! He tells me … who is safe and who isn’t safe when I’m out and about … He’s given me directions, … he is way more reliable than G.P.S. He’ll tell me which teaching I need to listen to … He helps me know what meal I’ll be happy to eat when I’m ordering at a restaurant. I am telling you, the guy is a genius!!… Read More Meeting Mr. Holy Spirit
“The biggest thing I fell into was planning every detail of how I could kill myself without hurting the baby I was carrying in my womb. I was a high suicide risk and I didn’t tell anyone except the one person who I wanted to care… and he didn’t…”… Read More Escaping the Pain When You Just Want to Die
“Emotional abuse, this can be the hardest to spot and the hardest to explain. They can be serial cheaters, controlling under the guise of trying to “protect you”, they play mind games, constantly lie, make you question your own reality…”… Read More Stop Settling for Lukewarm “Love”
“In the midst of this I became pregnant and went through the most emotionally painful and lonely pregnancy of my life. But this child kept me living”… Read More God Knew My Trial and My Child Before They Ever Came
I lived off of the highs of our relationship and the highs of weed. But when I hit the lows, they were SO LOW. Nothing kept me happy, nothing rid me of the deep pain inside. I attempted suicide 3 times by overdosing on different medications. Thanks to God, it wasn’t my time to go.… Read More My Rise From The Ashes of Depression and Self Harm
I couldn’t wrap my mind around the thought of being worth more than rubies when my husband couldn’t even see it. Was I mistaken? Did I need to perform more perfectly as a wife? Did I need to change my shy, reserved nature to be more like his extrovert mistress? No… none of that was the answer.… Read More If I’m Worth so Much, Why do I Feel so Worthless?
…when I first heard the Lord say to me that I didn’t have to have the answer for everyone. It intrigued and surprised me. I felt a sense of relief even as I felt the gentle slap of reproof from the Holy Spirit. He wasn’t just letting me off the hook, He was letting all my friends off the hook…… Read More We’re Here to Support One Another, Not Fix One Another
“…relying on God meant I could not rely on myself and I felt incredibly foolish in that place and as if I were on display to all the world. Many times I did find the wonder and beauty and awe and joy in those places…”… Read More I Trust You God… But Where’s My Rent?