Where do I even begin, there was a time in my life that all I could think of was giving up and that nothing mattered to me anymore. Life became so bleak that every little thing pushed me to the edge. I remember saying, “if one more incident occurs, I am going to lose it.”
Have you ever had that kind of moment in your life?
Have you ever had that kind of moment in your life? Because I sure had plenty. The feeling of simply losing it is such an awful feeling. At that time, I did not understand why I was going through what I was going through. I thought God was just punishing me for all of the mistakes I have made in my life. I felt so abandoned, rejected, and simply unwanted.
It took losing everything for me to finally realize that nothing matters more than God and that I am not in control of my life. I was so broken that I could not see the beauty in life. I went through so much trauma since childhood that all the dysfunction I was in felt normal and that everything was the way It was supposed to be. Then one day, when I reached rock bottom all I had to turn to was God. I could not run away anymore and all I could do was face myself, God, and everything that was going on with my life.
I encourage you today to get out of denial, to be honest with yourself, and stay true to yourself. It is okay to not be okay … just don’t stay there for too long. God created us for a purpose and for so much more. He does not want us to live our lives in pain and suffering but to live a joyful life. There is so much beauty in our brokenness, but it will take careful observation and dedication to see the beauty in it.
Do not fall for the devils’ trap to do what he wants you to do when you are sad.
Do the opposite instead! Remember, you are the daughter of the High King and the power that raised Lazarus from the dead is also in you!
Stand still, be encouraged, and be brave to know that you may be broken but you are beautifully made in His image. There is purpose in our pain; it may not make sense right now, but I promise in due time that purpose will reveal itself to you.
Keep seeking your truth and identity in Christ for He will never fail you or forsake you.
Clarice Cregger (AKA “Coach Claire”) was born and raised in Olongapo City, Philippines. She currently resides in Albuquerque, NM with her husband, Richard Torres. Clarice is an Amazon best-selling author, publishing her first book in 2020 as a co-author of “Heart of God for Her: 45 Day Devotional – Revealing God’s Love for His Leading Ladies.” Clarice is a creative entrepreneur, specializing in life coaching and professional photography. As a certified life coach, she thankfully utilizes her craft of transformational coaching with a keen focus on breaking harmful patterns and overcoming guilt and shame. With a compelling backstory of her own, Clarice is very passionate about helping women find their voice, strength, and beauty while overcoming past hurts. With a backdrop of faith in God, Clarice helps women and anyone in need fulfill their God-given purpose in life.